This past week, Paul & I went to NYC for vacation and to see his bro-in-law in a Broadway show. Again and again we have talked about marriage and engagement and he'd stressed that at the moment, he just could not afford a ring---and we'd somewhat agreed to put it off until we finished school (2 years- give or take a few months).
The ladies I work for had asked me did I think he was going to propose on this trip----while I had hoped he would, I just KNEW he wasn't. I'd already set myself to know that he would NOT, and was hoping I'd at LEAST have a ring by Christmas....
Needless to say, when he popped the question at Rockefeller's Top of the Rock observatory, overlooking the New York skyline- I was shocked....I couldn't even say yes! I think eventually he grabbed me and asked did I hear him and was that a yes.
I'm still in shock...
I still look down just to check and make sure it was real...
it's not just having a ring on my finger---it's SO much more than that! He could have bought a ring from the gumball machine for all I truly cared...
What i care about is that he wants to spend his life with me- that he loves me- that he wants us to be a family...
I can't help but think of all that brought us to where we are today---the both of us- having been through quite a bit in our lives. Ups and downs, downs and outs...we both drew so near giving up on life....we've been used, abused, stomped on---we've pulled away from the people we cared about because we didn't feel worthy of having people care about us...we tried to do things our own way, only to discover that we couldn't...and just when we were ready to give up and throw in the quitting towel, God, "HP" as Paul calls him", pulled us through...and brought us together.
Two very different people, from very different lives....two people who soar where the other fails, who balances each other out...Two people who are coming together as one...
I'd go through all of it all over again----just because it got me here....with him....with a ring on my finger, a song in my step, and love in my heart.
There's a place
I've been looking for
That took me in and out of buildings
Behind windows, walls and doors
And I thought I found it
Couple times, even settled down
And I'd hang around just long enough
To find my way back out
I know now
the place that I was trying to Reach
Was you, right here in front of me
[CHORUS]
And I wouldn't change a thing
I'd walk right back through the rain
Back to every broken heart
On the day that it was breakin'
And I'd relive all the years
And be thankful for the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
That led to you and got me here, right here
It's amazing what I let my heart go through
To get me where it got me
In this moment here with you
And it passed me by
God knows how many times
I was so caught up in holding
What I never thought I'd find
I know now, there's a million roads
I had to take
To get me in your arms that way
[Repeat Chorus]
In a love
I never thought I'd get to get to-here
And if that's the road
God made me take to be with you
[Repeat Chorus]
And I'd relive all the years
And be thankful for all the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
That led to you and got me here, right here
Oh, baby-OooOh, got me here
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